Being 16 has its ups and downs...

Ahh...

2005-10-14T23:22:00.000-07:00

Nothing real important has happened to me this past week. Bethel Camp weekend was the bomb tho. Me and Amy got alot closer, which that ROCKS! She is such a cool person. And of course me and Britt did to, we always get closer! lol Grades came out......I really disappointed myself....I got a C in Pre-Cal! I hate that class, i will be so happy when that class is OVER!! I had to baby-sit my sisters dog, Kaden, that was an experience. Im not used to a puppy, i am used to my dog, Pumpkin, which is really old and TRAINED! lol Me and Jared are doing so GOOD!! I honestly can say I like him alot better than I ever did my old boyfriend, Clifton (which i dated for almost 2 yrs) Thats kinda sad. But Jared has completely stolen my heart, he has it in his hands...and i love it. He is my kind of guy, he loves to have fun, he loves sports, he is just an all-around great guy, i am so lucky to have him in my life. Oh yea my best-friend Brittany and my cousin/best guy friend Casey hooked up! I am so happy for them!! OOO yea i almost forgot, tonight the Breathitt Bobcats won!! Against a 4-A team. we were down 20-6 at the half, came back and went into over time, the other team scored and got a field goal, we socred, we went for 2 and we won! I It was a great win for us! but i guess thats all for now! TOODLES

Nervous Breakdown

2005-10-02T23:05:00.000-07:00

I havent wrote in a while, on account that I have been so busy! This year has been HECK, but I will live....hopefully. This past Friday I realized how all my stress has been backin up in my mind. Friday morning I woke up throwing up, but I thought I just had a little bug or whatever. But the entire way to school I had to hold the urge to just throw up. Once I got to school, I totally broke down in front of my 1st period teacher, mrs bowling, crying and going on, because i had a major quiz in pre-cal that day that if i did bad on could possibly bring me down to a D. I am not a D person, if you guys know me, the thought freaks me out. So I was thinkin about it, it all came out, I cant handle that kind of pressure especially when i dont know anything in that class, I study my butt off but it dont help at all, that class ruins my whole day/week/month, i hate it with everything in me. The teacher totally pricks me out everyday, and it has been building up, I would understadn if i did something to her, but i have done nothing at all. Anyways, Friday was also picture day, and i had quizzes in spanish and Science. I think I took a bad pic, I did horrible on the science quiz 2nd period because my head was hurting, i had a fever and i went to the bathroom to throw up, it was horrible. After that was pre-cal. :(:( When we got in there she anounced that it would be a partner quiz. She stuck me with someone who dont know what to do any bettr than i do. It was crap, everyone else had good partners excpet me! she pricked me out again. I felt tears coming to my eyes. WE went to lunch after she anounced that, so i went down to the office to call my dad to come and get me, which he wouldnt be there until after we took the quiz. Me andthat one girl failed the quiz and i hate to know what i have in there. I just cant handle all this pressure and stress, im not used to doing badly and teachers disliking me for nothing. I have done nothing to her. Thats enough for now, I am getting nervous just thinkin about it. Later!

Busy Sunday...

2005-09-18T20:09:00.000-07:00

This morning me and my brother woke up to go to church with my grandparents, we had a great service this morning. But sadly Casey wasnt there so I had to hang with matthew, which isnt a bad thing. After church we went out to eat at Reno's in Hazard, that was good eatin'! lol But this coming Wednesday is my papa's b-day, he is gonna be 69! Which is great that he has lived this long!! Then after we went to eat at Renos, we went to walmart, i love going to walmart, its such a happy place, but then u get to the the chek-out lane, and its like how did i spend that much money? lol After that we all went to teh prark in Jackson because a lil girl from church had a b-day party, it was fun. I saw my friend Hopper, lol, Chris Spicer...actually he is one of jared's friends but he is one of mine now, he is awesome! Me and matthew played some ball at the park, but not much because we had to head home. Then we got home and here i am! lol I had a pretty busy sunday, i stayed gone from 9:00 AM to 5:00 PM, it was cool. Next sunday i am hoping to go riding, now that was FUN! But ne ways I'd better get off of here and head to bed, tomorrow is school....and PJ day! lol TOODLES

Well...Ups and downs

2005-09-17T20:20:00.000-07:00

Once again sorry I haven't wrote in a while, I get so busy with homework, talkin on the phone, etc. But ne ways the last part of this past week was ok. We had a HUGE Pre-Cal test which i think i did ok on, i have to have done better than the last test (a %46) lol But things with Jared started out bad, but by thrusday and friday things were good. He was being realy talkative and sweet. I love it when we have a convo, I just love hearing his voice, and when he says something funny, lol. Ne ways I just got done watching Armagedon (however u spell it) It was one of the saddest/best movies i have ever seen! It was GREAT! I am still teary eyes from it, lol. Ne ways the Black Gold is this weekend, which i cant go. Which leads me to wonder if jared has been or is gonna go, i never do get to talk 2 him on weekends unless its at church and he hasnt been at church in a while, :(. This coming Friday is Homecoming, which means a Homecoming Queen, I can't wait to see who wins, its a complete toss-up this year. Last year I was for Brittany Linkous, and she won :). So I hope I vote for a winner this year, lol I am gonna run for Prom Queen more than likely, which I doubt I will win because I am not popular enough, but heck i can try! If your reading this please vote for me! lol (if u are a junior) I can not wait until prom this year! Its gonna be great! I hope i get to go with jared, i would love to spend that night with him, plus i get to drive :D. Oh yea, i got to join FBLA, which is awesome, i love that club, i got reporter again :D thats great. Plus i joined the academic team, thich is kinda scary since i am doing English Comp. and I havent had a real english teacher since 7th grade but hopefully they will teach me. But ne ways I have to go for now! TTYL! TOODLES

Alot of events

2005-09-13T23:11:00.000-07:00

Im sorry guys that I haven't wrote in a long time, I have been really busy. Sunday was a GREAT day, me and Matt went 4-wheeler riding with our cousins and aunt and uncle, it was so much fun. I got drowned in mudd, from head to toe, i was so nasty. IT WAS GREAT, LOL! But then Monday was school, I was so tired from all that ridin, so i was drowsy the entire day! Jared poked fun at that tho. Then today was awful, I was gonna surprise Jared with something in his locker, since i get on to him for not decorating, so I made him a sign to put up int he locker but he decided not to come today. I was really sad because of course I didnt know why he wasnt there....we never do talk, so that made me think of things like that. But his cousin told me that he had a sore throat, so now i feel so bad for him. But I cant wait to see him tomorrow...I hope he will like it...I worked really hard. I wish he will realize how much I like him, lol. but ne ways I will update you guys tomorrow! TOODLES

BHS Friday Night Football

2005-09-10T13:11:00.000-07:00

Last night was the big game v. Powell Valley. Our Breathitt Bobcats have always beaten Powell Valley ever since we started playing against them. Last night was a great game. They were up 14 to nothing before the first half ended, but then we scored plus got the field goal. So the score was 7 to 14 at the end of the first half. The second half was so EXCITING. At one point we was on the 2-yard line and it was 4th down and we couldn't score!! It was CRAZY. I was so mad. So Powell got the ball back, but then about on our 40-yard line we got the ball back! adn scored!! The score was 13 to 14 with 3 minutes to go in the 4th quarter!! We lined up to do the 2-point conversion, but of course we didnt get it, so we lost 13 to 14...:( we should have won, we played a great game. But oh well, it was very exciting. Getting to the game was very tough...I had to convince my dad to let me stay at Brittany's house and then her dad offered to take me home (a long drive from Jackson). He is the best! I just can't believe it, it was so awesome of him. I truly do appreciate it. My day at school before the game was another "so-so" day. Of course I loved 1st period, me, Brittany, and Brandon were all in a group, that was great!! 2nd period sucked, simply because of science, I dont understand science at all, well this kind, we are studying about the atmosphere. Pre Cal was ok, we learned something new, that I totally don't undeerstand, but what else is new? Spanish was cool, because we got to cook, that was cool. Then I went to Brittany's. But good news, me and Jared are doing a lil bit better as in socializing with one another. We sat in the hallway and held hands at popbreak, it was wonderful. Since he is a freshman he doesn't get to play football very much in games, but I love watchin him on the sidelines, he is so cute. lol But anyway I have to be going, I have work to do around the house! so, toodles!!

Plain Day

2005-09-08T22:50:00.000-07:00

Today was just so plain, nothing exciting really happened. I will say this, 1st is the bomb! It rocks, me Britt, Ethan, and Brandon have our own little group, its so cool to hang out with them. 2nd period we went to the computer lab, which we didnt do anything. 3rd period we has a quiz that i knew everything about but of course once she said "QUIZ" I freaked out and missed a problem, (there was 5 questions), but it kills me how i knew it and i didnt excell on it. My overall grade in there is 77 C....i am not a C person, but i guess i have to live with it. One thing that has been under my skin is my brother, Matthew. He sleeps in that class, he is annoying, etc and he has a better grade than i do, i try so much harder. I wish Mrs. Barnett would do something about him, he is really annoying to everyone, not just me! I hear he is like that in every class, if he isnt careful no one is gonna like him. I like him better when he doesnt try to show off every 5 seconds, but anyways...lol. 4th period was better, we had a sub, so we really didnt do anything, i sat there and talked 2 David Kyle and Tiffany the entire time. Ok i have explained my day, let me talk about something else thats happening. lol. I am dating Jared, he is the best guy I have ever ever ever dated, it would BREAK my heart if he ever left me. But i wish he would show his emotions, here i am showing mine. lol But thats just jared i guess, i love him so much. I know love is an awful strong word for me and him to now be dating so long, but no-one understands my feelings for him, every time we kiss/touch it feels liek the 1st time over and over again, its so great. When i see him walkin down the hallway and he sees me, its like magical, lol. Well now i am gonna shut up, lol, u guys prolly dont wanna hear about that. But anyays tomorrow I am gonna bring up my courage and tell him how i feel face 2 face, wish my luck! TTYL TOODLES

Asi-Asi

2005-09-06T23:16:00.000-07:00

Asi-Asi means So-So in Spanish! Thats exactly how my day went! It wasnt good and it wasnt bad, but i did expect it to be better. 1st period is by far the best period (US History) because Britt, Ethan, Daniel, and Brandon are in there, I learn alot, and Mrs. Bowling id the best teacher ever! 2nd period was bad today, we had a HUGE science test, which i thought was pretty easy until I reached the open responce, i knew the answers briefly but not in detail, so i could tell that was gonna hurt my grade. But after the test I hung out with Randy, which this year he is so much nicer to me, which is cool. 3rd period.......PRE-CAL!!! NEED I SAY ANYMORE! lol j\p Pre-Cal was actaully great today, I knew exactly how to do the things we were doing, people were actually asking me for help, that really boosted my confidence. I was really dreading that class, but it turned out great. We are doing functions ( F(x)=3x+1 ) its really not that hard tho. We learned it in Alg. 1 and 2. Pop-break...let me skip that for now. Spanish was fun because we got to cut out pics and make a collage of things I like and don;t like, it was fun. But back to popbreak....I am just about to have a a mental breakdown. Ok I like Jared with everything in me, i think everyone knows that, but i have no idea how he feels about me. He is the best guy I have ever dated, he is so nice and sweet to me, its just I gte the feeling that he doesnt wanna be around me hardly. Idk, maybe its all in my head. I guess its where i never eevr wanna lose him, I love being with him...he has my heart. But anyways besides all that my day was an overall 6 on a scale 1-10 (10 being highest) Hopefully tomorrow will be better, I will try my best. Toodles!

Sept. 5- No School

2005-09-05T21:21:00.000-07:00

Well today is Monday but not like every other Monday. Today we had no school. Back in the 6th grade I would have glady welcomed this dismissal of school, but as I get older I just want to go to school to get it over with. Plus I want to see Jared and other friends. Socializing has became the higlight of school in the past few years. Today has been so LONG, I thought it was never ever gonna end. I didn't wake up until 12....but of course this was the first morning I woke up in my own bed in 2 nights, it felt so good. As soon as I woke up I figured I would fix something to eat for me and Matthew (my twin-brother), so I made Polish-Sausages, Green-bean Cassrole, and Potatoe Salad. If I dont say myself it was pretty good. Then it went all down-hill from there, I basically stayed on here all day hoping someone would get online for me to talk 2, I was supposed to be cleaning but my stomache wasnt agreeing with what I ate so i just drug around. I did watch GodSend for the 2nd time, that is a great movie, I love it. Then i just listened to music and gave my dog, Pumpkin, a bath. I called Brittany Sloas, and she reminded me that I had a science paper due tomorrow, that was GREAT news.... NOT!! I have never in my whole life ever liked Science, as I get older I stress that. Science is to complicated for me, I love studying the Solar System tho, thats what we are doing right now, so its really not that hard but I hate writing papers, thats prolly understandable. School work is getting harder and harder which leads me thinin about college...making me even more scared. But I am just trying to get through this all. With school work, Jared, church, friends, family, sleeping, I have no time for hardly anything. If i ever have any free time that would be at like 12 Midnight thats when i usually sing and dance around my room with headphones, but i pay for it the next day. Since I get on the bus at 6:00 AM (I wake up around 5:00) and dont get home until 4:30 then I usually take a nap until 7 and then take a shower then homework and my day is done. Its really hectic. But I have wrote to much, there will be more tomorrow! It will be my first post about school happenings! Toodles!

My first post!

2005-09-04T23:32:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! This is my first post. I am really excited about creating me a blog. I have alot of thoughts and ideas on a variety of subjects but i am to lazy to write them down. Then I got this idea off of one of my good friends, Samantha Bryant, to start one. I figured...hey i am on the interent alot anyway, why not vent my emtions, lol. The first thing you might have noticed is that my Blog title, "Being 16 has its ups and downs." This has alot of meaning, but you might not realize the true meaning right now, since it is my first post. When I turned 16 I honestly didn't feel any different until I actually got a car. Dont think i am weird! But getting a car, to me, made me feel more like an adult. This means gas money, insurance money, tire money, etc. Even tho i have no job to pay for these things, but that will soon come. My car is an '02 Chevy Caviler LS...its my baby, lol, besides Jared of course. This leads me onto a different subject you might hear about, Jared Cesefske, heck i dont even know where to start on him. But trust me you will hear alot about him. But for a brief into, he is my boyfriend, we have been dating for a lil over one month, he plays football (# 44), he is the best thing that has happened 2 me in a while. Yesterday we actually got to spend a whole day together off and on at the Honey Festivel....we had tons of fun. But anyways I think Id better shut up, lol, come back and check this! It will be updated!