Being 16 has its ups and downs...

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Nervous Breakdown

I havent wrote in a while, on account that I have been so busy! This year has been HECK, but I will live....hopefully. This past Friday I realized how all my stress has been backin up in my mind. Friday morning I woke up throwing up, but I thought I just had a little bug or whatever. But the entire way to school I had to hold the urge to just throw up. Once I got to school, I totally broke down in front of my 1st period teacher, mrs bowling, crying and going on, because i had a major quiz in pre-cal that day that if i did bad on could possibly bring me down to a D. I am not a D person, if you guys know me, the thought freaks me out. So I was thinkin about it, it all came out, I cant handle that kind of pressure especially when i dont know anything in that class, I study my butt off but it dont help at all, that class ruins my whole day/week/month, i hate it with everything in me. The teacher totally pricks me out everyday, and it has been building up, I would understadn if i did something to her, but i have done nothing at all. Anyways, Friday was also picture day, and i had quizzes in spanish and Science. I think I took a bad pic, I did horrible on the science quiz 2nd period because my head was hurting, i had a fever and i went to the bathroom to throw up, it was horrible. After that was pre-cal. :(:( When we got in there she anounced that it would be a partner quiz. She stuck me with someone who dont know what to do any bettr than i do. It was crap, everyone else had good partners excpet me! she pricked me out again. I felt tears coming to my eyes. WE went to lunch after she anounced that, so i went down to the office to call my dad to come and get me, which he wouldnt be there until after we took the quiz. Me andthat one girl failed the quiz and i hate to know what i have in there. I just cant handle all this pressure and stress, im not used to doing badly and teachers disliking me for nothing. I have done nothing to her. Thats enough for now, I am getting nervous just thinkin about it. Later!